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1. Im really tired.

2. Im wearing my Antichrist superstar shirt (thank you will!)

3. Im pretty optimistic for a pessimistic person : ).

4. Im happy.

5. I like old metal lunchboxes.

6. I want to buy Clerks.

7. I make kandi way too often.

8. Im going to go put some lip gloss on and go shoot up a school...wanna join?


OK i tag

I hate how you effect me in such a deep intimate level.
I hate how you make me feel.
I hate how you've made me your personal whore.
I hate how no matter what you do or not do or say or not say
that I still have love and lust left for you to chip off more.
I hate how you've made me a fool over you.
I hate how little you care about me.
Or how you don't care at all.
I hate that I've lost my self-respect because of you.
I hate that I've lost my last bit of purity because of all the dirty things we did.
The dirty things we did.
I hate how you make me feel filthy.
I hate how you've made me shame myself.
I hate how you just leave me after what we've done.
I hate how you teased me.
You're such a tease.
Showing me a world, MY world, what could have been....
A beautiful world.
Then taking it away from me just as easily.
Back to my demons.
My decaying hope.
My disappointing past.
My disgraceful side.
I hate that.
All of it.
What you did and more.
But at least I have one more thing to hold on to.
My hate for YOU.
My hate will protect me from the likes of YOU.
My hate will teach me things I should have been taught before.
My hate will protect my heart from someone undeserving of it like YOU.
My hate will remind me to HATE you not love you.
My hate will protect me from ME.

And hopefully my HATE will KILL the LOVE I still have left for you.

Yes I went to the concert last monday at Marysvill (sacramento) It was fucking awesome I took Richard, Randy, and my best friend Josh. Even though all I could afford was lawn tickets it was still a rather great and incredible experience, sure I couldnt touch Manson's hand or catch his hat but nonetheless I got to see him live and that alone tickled my heart.

Slayer did a fanstastic job I actually wanted to mosh to a song of theirs but it was a bit intense for me so I just watched. I did however, mosh to Marilyn Manson's Fight Song, Antichrist Superstar, and The Beautiful People. God damn I love moshing. I must say I was reluctant at first but this older guy looked at me and said, "Ah come on! I'll go with ya" so he took me by the hand gently and I walked into the mosh pit with him and I had a blast.

I liked Slayer already but I must confess I am more of a Manson fan by far, but seeing Slayer play live made me manic and completely...happy. Haha so now im getting more into them. I like the 'God Hates Us All' album best, any suggestions?

Oh yeah, I thought I saw Peaches there. Not that I KNOW him know him but anyway who cares? I swear to god I saw him and if that wasn't him well damn...must have been his evil twin ^_^.

(I will post pictures here as soon as Richard e-mails me ok?)

In conclusion, i'm very, very glad and not to mention lucky that I went to the concert. I even got a badass Manson t-shirt . I had a great time and I hope anyone who went did too!

Hello my children, and how are we today?

Im jolly fine considering that im GOING TO GO SEE MANSON TOMORROW NIGHT AT 8:00!!! WOOOOOO! !! Oh yes I am VERY excited I get to see my number one favorite band. Though I must say that I prefer old Manson but whatever Eat Me, Drink Me wasnt too terrible I'll be sure to take pictures and post them up kiddies!